when i leave new york for good..

Don't Say A Word
The Last One's Still Stinging
Back A My Mind
I Feel That Phone Ringing
And There Is No Way Back From This

Everything Hits At Once
What We Needs Is Just What We Wants
I Go To Sleep But Think That You're Next To Me
I Go To Sleep And Think You're Next To Me

Don't Make A Move
When I Walk Out Don't Follow Me
Out In The Car
Can Feel It Calling Me
And Ooh You're So Far Away

But I Can Still Change My Mind Tonight
I Gotta Change My Mind Somehow
I Go To Sleep Alone But Think That You're Next To Me
Everything Hits At Once Tonight
Outside Is All Lit Up With Ad Lights
In Traffic We Become On The Way Back Home
Part Of Something Bigger Than Just On Our Own

I Gotta Change My Mind Tonight
I Can Still Change My Mind Tonight
Merging In Traffic Cross The Lanes And Then We Become
Something Bigger Than Just Any One
Oh And Everything Hits At Once
What We Needs Is Just What We Wants
I Go To Sleep And Think That You're Next To Me
I Go To Sleep And Think That You're Next To Me

O my love is light as a dove
Her skin is fair and dark is her hair
And her eyes dart 'round and fall on the ground
And her lips move along to an old country song

Down south you will find among the high pines
An old liquor store where we danced on the floor
O the light on the wall, it brightens the hall
But the room in the back is quiet and black

What keeps me alive is the green in your eyes
And the sweet distant drone of your voice on the phone
Could I hear, in death, your voice and your breath?
Could I hear them sounds in life underground?

O how likely she walks among the white stalks
And, crane in her neck, she steps 'round the deck
Could I bow in the sand to your lily white hand?
Can my head gently rest in your lily white breast?

O my love is light as a dove
Her skin is fair and dark is her hair
And her eyes dart 'round and fall on the ground
And her lips move along to an old country song

oh, brother.

i've been going to see two of my friends play in their numerous bands. same people for the most part, slightly different sound, and different names. they do bluegrass covers on tuesdays, creedence clearwater revival revival, and tonight they did bluegrass but one of them wrote all the songs. really good, but one song especially i wish i could post up here but i think it was the first time he'd played it to more then 1 person before. it breaks your heart, this song. i've been really getting into that kind of music recently. they introduced me to this band called the felice brothers. really really incredible.

perfect.

some of my etchings.

sympathetic sounds of detroit

my older sister never liked the norm when it came to music, she would buy cds that i had never heard of, which was cool because i had a great taste in music by the time i was 11. One cd she brought home was the sympathetic sounds of detroit, which was actually produced by jack white of the white stripes. funny that... if you listen to this album, the white stripes song (red death at 6:14) is one of my least favorite songs on the album. i guess they were the most poppy so thats why they got famous and no one else did.

don't get me wrong, jack white is a talented guy but he could have been so much better. shes terrible, lets just say it out loud. i don't have much rhythm and i could easily drum better then her. i digress.
Through this cd, which features music from the hentchmen, soledad brothers, detroit cobras, buzzards etc, we found a whole genre of music that really didn't exist anywhere else. I came to call it detroit rock and roll, because its dirty rock/blues. amazing.
this is one from the soledad brothers called teenage heart attack. keep in mind that none of these bands made any money through there music. like i believe one of the soledad brothers is a doctor by day.
the soledad brothers are no longer together, which is kind of sad really.
i found our theres a documentary called it came from detroit but you cannot get it anywhere. it's my mission to watch it now.
i'll write more on this later. I leave you with one of my favorite songs, love by the hentchment.

bill clinton owns life

so the DNC was last week, I didn't think I would watch any of it, but i ended up watching the majority of the speechs. hands down the best one was bill clinton. sorry obama. bill is one of the best public speakers i have ever seen. the reason he had so many votes from the younger population in america was because of is laid back attitude and how he speaks to people. he doesn't sound like a politician, he sounds like a person who knows what they are talking about and wants other people to understand as well. it's rare that i get so excited about political things, but heres one that gave me shivers..


this week has been a little rough on the political front, esp with conversations amongst my peers. one good friend informed me, very seriously, that if obama doesn't win, he's leaving the country. it doesn't suprise me too much. when i went to barcelona i met quite a few americans that left after bush got elected for a second term. it's hard to allow myself to think how badly america is actually doing right now. almost in devistation really. everyone is always saying oh but obama is too idealistic to be president, not enough practice blah blah blah. don't we need someone with such amazing ideals for our country? we need such a radical change, and i see obama as the only solution. i just really really hope he wins. i won't even get into how rediculous the republicans choice in VP is. i had no idea that drama in politicians lives are more important then what they stand for. the fact that a possible next vp is on the cover of celebrity gossip magazines sickens me. but shes a toy that is getting played by the republicans.
i fear for america if mccain wins. any glimpse of the good america will be gone and there will be riots in the street. well i hope so...or will the fact our country is ruined just be accepted?

womens role in the work place in world war two.

I watched a clip about womens hair in the workplace from the 40's on my sisters blog thing and thought it was pretty funny. about how veronica lake helped the war effort by putting up her hair. it was hilarious. but then i found this one and thought it was a joke. but it was quite serious.

Dali

Thanks to a friend of mine, I went the opening of the Salvador Dali exhibition at the MoMA a few weeks ago. I had seen quite a bit of his work when I went the the Dali Museum in Barcelona back in November. The Dali museum in Barcelona was filled mostly with his illustrations, statues, and photography. The exhibition at the MoMA was more to do with installation art and his film escapades.
I was surprised to find out that he had created a movie for Disney that was never made. His work is quite dark and odd for a childrens film, but i suppose its right up that time periods alley, along with Fantasia.

They had sets from the Hitchcock film he did the sets for, Spellbound, which were quite magnificent.

even though he was a crazy drunken womanizer, he had some amazing art, excluding his melting clocks that everyone seems to know him for. they are quite boring. but his illustrations of people are some of the most incredible illustrations i have ever seen. anyway, theres my rant on dali.

the past few weeks

happiness

the video is kind of stupid, it could be something great to match this song. but i love this song so much. its kind of eerie no?
ive had some friends visiting me from england for the past two weeks so i've been way busy and very tired.
update with photos soon.
i got a new camera.
i turned 21.

It cannot be helped.

I've tried to keep this blog thing as impersonal as possible, but atm I need to vent so why not do it here?
When I thought that I couldn't be more disappointed by people I know, today I was actually disgusted by certain actions taken by one of them. I suppose I can tolerate when guys my age fuck around with girls who are just 18, but I am TRULY disgusted when they fuck girls who still have a few years left of high school. Are boys that pathetic and desperate that they go back a few years and sleep with a girl who's 16? someone who was born in the 90's? ew.
I get so nervous for my generation sometimes because we make terrible decisions and have no motivation. A lot of the guys are just so DUMB, butgranted so are the girls. I try my best to brush off soooo many things that seem to happen in my life, one bad thing after the next, and ignore the fact that my friends make one bad life choice after the next, but sometimes i just can't let it go. I think that common sense must have been vetoed if you were born after 84', because I haven't witnessed it in anyone my age. Another thing I've noticed is that if we can treat our friends so terribly, I can't imagine how our enemies would feel. ok that was a stupid rant, but it had to be said even though it doesn't make sense.

i think my point it that my generation is whack and I'm disappointed in us.

and I'm really scared for our future





happy independence day i guess..

youtube love.

When I was younger, I used to watch Mtv and just wait for my favorite music videos to come on. There weren't too many so I knew my favorites would come on at least twice that day. One of them was black hole sun by soundgarden because it was so strange, plus I liked soundgarden a lot when I was seven.

then as I got older, I began to like music from before I was born. I looked everywhere to find music videos for bands like Joy Division, The Who, The Kinks, Otis Redding, Madness. but alas, no where to be seen. then you tube came along. I dunno sometimes I still get so excited knowing I kind type in any musician I like into youtube and then watch them play my favorite song. that is how accessible music is, whether or not it's a good or bad thing. music has become such a big part of everyone. no matter who you are, you have a strong opinion on music and what genre you like best. anyway, i went way off tangent there. I just wanted to post some of my favorite music videos..
Paranoid Android- Radiohead. The first time I saw this i though it was from the odyssey, you know that weird hour of strange cartoons mtv had. it's such a great animation. I love when he just climbs up the lamp post and sits.

radiohead is just efficient with their music as well as the videos. I saw them live once when I was like 16. they were incredible. heres one of my favorite songs by them How to Disappear Completely. It's one of the most perfect songs I've ever heard. what instruments are they playing in the back?


away from radiohead for a minute.
I was really excited the first time I saw Love Will Tear Us Apart by Joy Division. boring music video, but I had never seen them perform before.

Otis Redding- I've Been Loving You

What gets me about music like this, and al green and smokey robinson etc is that their songs are the highest form of love songs. you get love songs today, but they are pretty whack for the most part and or they don't really convey the message that well. but these, these are straight to the point, they are the songs that could make you fall in love with whoever sings it to you.
last one. Edith Piaf- La Foule.

The November Project

my super talented friend, indiana, came up with a drunken idea one night to make an obama support film to share with the world his hopes for the future. 5 months later, we watched it in a small screening room on 49th. I cannot express how proud of him I am, and how glad I am to be part of such an amazing film. so here it is on youtube, tell your friends and visit indianahoover.com for more information.

crazy

21 is a shitty year. people are at their lamest.

anyway I was watching CSI miami, i thought that guy jake looked familiar. turns out he was AJ in empire records. i don't why but that movie always makes me super nostalgic. you kind of never wanted it to end. i think its my minor obsession with the suburbs. i feel like it must have been so different to grow up there. I just wonder what it would have been like.

patterns

I want to make a dress. but look at all these lovely patterns I've found, I can't decide.

I'm about to be a nerd for a minute.

My favorite show of all time is the X Files. Yes, I've been made fun of countless times for it, but my love has never faltered. Anyway, I've happily found loads of episodes online so I'm watching the episode Sanguinarium. Get at me if you know what it means, because I'm not a trekkie, but its about plastic surgery and Wicca. like who thinks of this shit? Off topic, I digress. The X Files doesn't scare me as it does most people, it makes me nervous cause it shows you the freaks of America. I don't see these sort of people everyday, being from new york we get the regular weirdos like crackheads and exibitionists, so it really furthers my beliefs that the Midwest is a fucking scary place. I believe, Mulder, I believe that people are just weird. It is seriously like watching a freak show which I obviously enjoy. There's this one episode set in a house full of inbreds. such as these happy looking folks:its a creepy episode to say the least. but i loves it.

P.s. I'm so excited for the second movie to come out, it's called "I want to believe". priceless.